Daily things:
Oct. 19th, 2015 04:11 pmWe have a ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
snakeling at home until tomorrow! She's currently out and about while I'm sewing. :)
Health
Still on the verge of getting back on antidepressants (I suppose we would try increasing my Laroxyl for that purpose). I'm functional, I can get up in the morning, and I want to do stuff (but that's not unusual for me during a depressive episode) but I think about death and dying basically as soon as I cease to be overstimulated. I'm far from being suicidal, to be clear, but yeah, the first thought I have in the morning is "another day closer to death" and the last thought I have at night is "that went fast, sooner than I think I'll be dead". Not a super good place, tbh.
Music
I'm trying to listen to stuff that do not actively make me feel bad (although I've fallen into an IAMX hole, the date of the concert getting closer, and, hm, it's not the best for that purpose? Far from the worse though). So, stuff like Destroid, Gabi Delgado, Trust, Róisín Murphy, Rotersand... I also listened to Trisomie 21 (no idea how that came up but I hadn't heard them in a long long time), Joy Division's Closer (yeah, yeah, whatever, Ima grownup, I can listen to Joy Div when I want). The episode from The Americans we watched last night ended on "Siamese Twins", which happens to be probably my favourite song by The Cure, so the urge to listen to Pornography is strong, but I think its... a bad idea.
Photography
I still really feel like taking self-portraits again, and I have precise ideas. I haven't done so in a long while and my self esteem is plummeting. I think the photos did help some,
Crafting
I've started sewing another pair of drop crotch pants, from a new pattern and it is rather difficult (well, the pattern had an error in it, so there's that). I'm also still waiting for the delivery of my zipper foot, so right now I'm stuck. I've done the side pockets, the belt and I can't assemble any further.
Watching
I'd like to start watching Aquarius with David Duchovny but I think there's quite a few bits that might be triggery for me. I might try, I've read spoilers and hopefully I can handle it.
Reading
I have just started Ancillary Mercy, yay! I've really just read a few pages and faceplanted (I'm really not sleeping well lately, which probably doesn't help my mood).
snakeling at home until tomorrow! She's currently out and about while I'm sewing. :)Health
Still on the verge of getting back on antidepressants (I suppose we would try increasing my Laroxyl for that purpose). I'm functional, I can get up in the morning, and I want to do stuff (but that's not unusual for me during a depressive episode) but I think about death and dying basically as soon as I cease to be overstimulated. I'm far from being suicidal, to be clear, but yeah, the first thought I have in the morning is "another day closer to death" and the last thought I have at night is "that went fast, sooner than I think I'll be dead". Not a super good place, tbh.
Music
I'm trying to listen to stuff that do not actively make me feel bad (although I've fallen into an IAMX hole, the date of the concert getting closer, and, hm, it's not the best for that purpose? Far from the worse though). So, stuff like Destroid, Gabi Delgado, Trust, Róisín Murphy, Rotersand... I also listened to Trisomie 21 (no idea how that came up but I hadn't heard them in a long long time), Joy Division's Closer (yeah, yeah, whatever, Ima grownup, I can listen to Joy Div when I want). The episode from The Americans we watched last night ended on "Siamese Twins", which happens to be probably my favourite song by The Cure, so the urge to listen to Pornography is strong, but I think its... a bad idea.
Photography
I still really feel like taking self-portraits again, and I have precise ideas. I haven't done so in a long while and my self esteem is plummeting. I think the photos did help some,
Crafting
I've started sewing another pair of drop crotch pants, from a new pattern and it is rather difficult (well, the pattern had an error in it, so there's that). I'm also still waiting for the delivery of my zipper foot, so right now I'm stuck. I've done the side pockets, the belt and I can't assemble any further.
Watching
I'd like to start watching Aquarius with David Duchovny but I think there's quite a few bits that might be triggery for me. I might try, I've read spoilers and hopefully I can handle it.
Reading
I have just started Ancillary Mercy, yay! I've really just read a few pages and faceplanted (I'm really not sleeping well lately, which probably doesn't help my mood).
