Daily updates: La Myrrhe, Encephalon, self-portraits, Grimm, Neuroticfish

Perfume

Wore La Myrrhe along with my favourite dress. :)

Music

Into Encephalon quite a bit at the moment, so I played The Transhuman Condition when waking up. Then Die Form – Rayon X once Math was up, The Present Moment – Loyal To A Fault, Displacer – Electric Dreams, Orphx – Circuitbreaking.

Photography

Math went to his parents for lunch to celebrate his birthday, and in his absence I took some self portraits. My skin is doing very well at the moment, so that was an extra incentive. It's amazing how I got the energy to set up the tripod, move stuff around (chairs, ladder, big ass fan) in the bedroom, when a few days ago it was absolutely impossible to me and just turning the knobs on the tripod exhausted me and got my head spinning.

I tried a couple of settings and ended up in front of the window. I took, I don't know, maybe 30 photos, trying different things with the light. Kirlian Camera was playing in the background. When I was done and looked at all the photos at once, I realized I found myself to look okay in all of them. It felt so incredible to realize. Of course, there's good days and bad days and my skin being smooth helps. But wow, it was amazing. I picked a couple and edited them right away: I tweaked the colours and level, but didn't do any cosmetic retouching. I don't see the point. I want to see myself and love myself, not a idealized image of myself. So here's me, pimples and dark circles included (I texted them to Math as soon as they were ready because I was quite happy with them):


( More photos under the cut )

 

Watching

I watched Grimm and the episode with the man-eating woman wasn't as terrible and tropey as I was fearing. I'm still not super happy about what's happening in general but things need to develop. But Adalind's arc is gross.

More music

I listened to some Carpenter Brut, to the latest Neuroticfish, the Gothsicles, and then started putting a couple of mixtapes together. The next one should be a Hi-Energy one, with some electro stuff but also some MIA, Adam Freeland...

Reading

I think I read a bit? I was exhausted but wanted to stay awake until midnight to with Math a happy birthday. The next thing I remember is waking up in the dark, still propped up on my pillows. Oops. ><

Self-portrait blog

I have set up a Tumblr account dedicated to my photo experiments. I will post my self-portraits there, and most likely only there.

But be warned that there will be nudes as well. Nothing pornographic but if you think seeing my breasts or my pubes might be a problem for you, you really don't have to follow. I will tag nudes, if that helps.

To me a naked body is just a naked body. I'm not a modest person. I have done nude modelling in the past and there are quite a few nude photos of me floating about on the internet already. So if we don't know each other that well but you'd like to follow, please don't hesitate.

I will probably write quite a bit along with the photos about my feelings regarding the whole process, so if anyone suffers from similar issues, I don't know, maybe it could have value of sorts.

Anyway, here's the link (no nudes yet :P)